how i love night outs with my friends!!
I’M IN FINAL YEAR! can’t believe it, time went by so fast.. :D
yesterday i thought about some stuff again (as always).
2 months ago i was feeling very down and i didn’t know why. i had a strange feeling in my chest and i didn’t know the answer. but i think i found an answer to that. and not to that, to all my problems. because everything depends on that. i stood there in the kitchen and i could have started crying. then i went to my dad and we sat down and i told him: dad, i’m scared to be me. it’s like by the time i have built a cage in my head and now my mind is captured there and it isn’t allowed to be free. i don’t know why but it’s just like that. i know that sounds really strange or yeah, i’m rambling around. But sometimes i just can’t dare to tell my closest friends some things. (just some things, otherwise i can tell them everything!) i’m just scared of how they react. i feel like a litte helpless dog, which just follows everyone and just doesn’t do the things i really want to do. but the point is, i know that this is bullshit and they do not care, they like me the way i am and they want me to do the things i want, because they have their own life. this is my life, i know, and i can do the things i want. and if they really wouldn’t accept that they would not be my friends. i know that, i know, but this stupid cage just doesn’t let me turn that into reality..
that’s a stupid fear i know, but i have to fight this. this is a reason for many problems in my life, but i have to be strong. it’s time to let my mind be free. it’s time to open that cage. but i also need time to fix that and i need to figure out how.
sorry for rambling around i just had to say that out loud..
i wish you all an amazing day!! stay strong guys, xxxx
today is one of those days. those days when you have an A+ boday image day :D love yourself guys, btw i love you :D
• i woke up so early because my throat was hurting. i had to cough the whole night and puh that was so annoying. i planned to sleep in and then meet two friends for breakfast, but i was so hungry and ya know, no restricting! so i made myself a yummy filling breakfast smoothie (banana, blueberries, almond milk, oats and lots lots lots of almond butter)
• then i met my friends in the café and i had another breakfast. ( i could always have breakfast, so yeei for a second one! )
• later we checked out the new fashion for fall and seriously i could by the whole collection, i love fall fashion!!
• when i came home my dad and i went to some grocery shopping ( i drove ) and we had a lot of fun and made jokes about everything :D
• we got back and surprise! my brother was home from university!! ( only for a short time, but i’m so happy! )
• at 6 o clock my mum came home and we all had dinner together with lots of laughter :)
• i was such in a shopping mood that i did a bit of online shopping, just have to tell my mum that i have found some sale stuff ;)
• and now relaxing time with my brother and a good movie!
how’s your day so far? xx