only one week of school holidays left :(
imwaytoowhitetotanfromsunrays said: Tell us about your recovery!
my recovery is going very well! foodwise i enjoy food so much! i just have to fight with thoughts here and there but i’m finding my way every day more. i never want to go back to when i was starving because i had an unhappy life and no energy. now i want to achieve things and my self confidence is coming back. anorexia just wants to ruin that but i don’t let that happen. i chose to fight everyday. sometimes it’s hard when it comes to comparison but i try to just focus on whats good for me because i have to live my life and not the one from others. it’s my body and i wanna love myself from the inside and out. just have to tell me that when things get tough. holidays were also a challenge cause i was out of my comfort zone but i talked the things out loud to my parents and then it all went good and i thought that anorexia controlled my life for too long. i want to be free and happy :)
have a nice day!! xx
matildasmind said: Why are you so pretty? Is that an acceptable question?
how can you be so lovely? thank you thank you thank you! look at you stunning girl xxx
do you have some questions? i’m in the mood for answering questions! :)
as a child i was always confident and didn’t think about what others could think about me. i did what i wanted to do. but i always was that kind of person who first care about others than about myself. by the time i got unsure this point grow more and more and i started to give up things i wanted so that i could concentrate on others, that they are happy. and i think that was where i slowly lost my self confidence. i gave up some dreams because i thought my friends would react oddly or didn’t understand. but why did i started to think that way?? they’re my friends and if they don’t accept me the way i am or the way i act they are not worth my time. and anyway i always overthink how they react but they really don’t care. they like me the way i am and understand the decisions i make cause they have there own life and this is my life. i lost parts of me and i lost my right way and now it feels that i slowly get my stuff together. time by time i’m more on my way. i am strong enough to have my own opinion and also say it out loud. because it’s my life and i have to be happy. i don’t want to look back on my life and think way i hadn’t done the things I wanted. so i start to just do everything i want and not give up any dreams of myself anymore. i want my self confidence back and that is just the right way. when i accept myself people will also do. because i want that they like the real me and not the version that customize to everyone.
sorry for rambling around. i don’t even know if that is understandable what i wrote out, but i had to just write down my thoughts :)
have a nice day!! xxx